| A silent murder, a quiet failure. You probably won't be reading this blog anyways because your xanga is shutted, but.. I just realized today, there are something or some feelings that cannot be described. Also, it's something anyone would never ever understand no matter how hard you try to explain or demonstrate. Maybe some people may have experienced the similar emotions, but its never the exact thing. Similarity doesn't mean understanding. 6 months battle within a 2 years of relationship, I now throwing out the white flag. You win, because I'm tired of playing cat and mouse. I don't wannna chase anymore, but you keep running. I'm exhausted but I'm restless. The 6 months, start from me leaving and returning to a different environment, different people, different relationship and a different you is the biggest change I've ever faced. Till now, I still haven't adapted to the changes that were made. You asked me, "why do you bring up the past". I told you, the past contributes to who we are today. Because 2 years ago, we were both happy in the same room celebrating for the next chapter of our lives. 2 years later, are you happy? I'm not, I forgot what happiness taste like. Your choice to break me, destroy me, lie to me, kill me. After all that you've done to me, right now at this very moment, I'm still loving you regardlessly. This failure remains for the rest of my life. I've been murdered because i failed to forget you. I want you to be happy, go on and do everything you've always wanted to do. You have to take care because I want you to know, even though I failed to forget you, but I never failed to love you. |
